100th post--big news!

I think this news is fitting for the 100th post here.

OK READERS, I am going back to school!!!!!! The following is from a message board that I belong to...

I've been feeling really stuck and bored with life lately, as some of you might have noticed.

My therapist and I made major headway the other night about why I feel like this...and finally she said, "Look, I have to say this, I might be biased, but..." and then she suggested that I'm not stimulated enough, I'd do better in an intellectual/academic environment, etc. That I don't really have a career, just jobs, and my dissatisfaction with that is why I keep wanting to "run away" from my life and just stay home and not work. So then I said to her "Okay, I have to come out with this...but I keep thinking about library school."

I had been thinking about it for years, since senior year of college--and just kept pushing it away, esp. after being IN a library...but I keep going back to it...and with all of my book-related jobs...why not make it my career and do something REAL and more stimulating and intellectual than what I am doing now? (and, um, make more money, lol) I just needed to admit it to myself.

I feel SO much better, as if I have figured out my purpose/direction. I think that's what was missing--I didn't have anything to look forward to or think about. And now I do No more stuck feeling...I just have to move forward with my stuff. It makes me VERY excited thinking about it. It just all came together.

When I told DH after my appointment, he was like TOLD YOU SO! For years, he's been saying how I should go back to school, be a librarian, etc.

So, at the end of this month, I will start my very first library class, and go one class a semester until I'm accepted (because the school limits how many non-matriculated classes you can take) and then try and finish the degree as fast as I can. Over the summer, I will take the GRE, get all my application stuff together, etc.

Part of me was feeling like I needed to have my life figured out, and fast, esp. before we have kids. Well, we're not having kids for a few more years, so I can still do school, and there was a part of me who felt that I had to be like MY mom, and be a SAHM. I know a lot of people who had working parents and they turned out all right, no delinquents or anything, lol. I also know mothers who went back to school after having kids, too. There's no perfect life. There's an ideal, but nothing's perfect. So I'm just gonna roll with it and see what happens.

Some new goals for this year

Yeah, because it's 2009 and you're all doing it too ;-)

1) Definitely work on improving my health. Notice I didn't say lose weight...but that would be good too, and hopefully a benefit of watching what I eat and getting to the gym. I think kids are in the near future for us--at least in the next 2 to 3 years--and I really need to be a healthy woman.

2) Research more on a certificate program that I'm interested in. It would help me in my future job searches, no matter which career path I chose. (It would be a certificate in management.) It also would not pigeon-hole me into anything, which is always a good thing! Even better, some classes are online, so it wouldn't tie me down too much.

3) Get out, get involved--be it with a local Stitch and Bitch club, book club, volunteering somewhere, etc. I think I spend too much time on my own or with DH, and I really need to expand my horizons. It's almost like I'm developing social anxiety from NOT doing anything--weird.

4) Get rid of stuff around this house! Some of it will go to my parents' until we're ready for a house (you can only use SO many glasses or towels) and some of it will be gone for good! To Goodwill!

Will you be my friend?

On Facebook, that is.

A girl whom I've known since Kindergarten, and was very good friends with throughout our school years, but lost touch with during college, friended me recently on Facebook. It surprised me, and actually made my stomach do flip-flops...and not in a good way.

I always found myself getting annoyed with her, especially in high school. She was one of the pretty, thin girls, with over-indulgent parents, tons of boyfriends, "other" friends (people who didn't like me), etc. She always seemed to try and "one up" everyone else, and finally I just got sick of her antics, so I just stopped reaching out to her.

I'm guessing that now, this Facebook friending thing is to poke her nose into my life (which is what most people do on FB anyway) and see if she's better off than I am. I'm sure she is...I know she's got a new house and a new baby, and probably some great job and I'm sure her husband is employed too...

Meanwhile, I'm still struggling with everything these days--no house until my husband gets a job, I'm still not satisfied with my career, all which means no babies for awhile...and most definitely not until my health improves.