Sunday, July 27, 2008

feeling a bit down

I really want DH to find a job. REALLY. It seems like this is keeping us from moving on with a lot of things. I'm on this newlywed board (NOT THE NEST) and everyone's buying houses or redecorating, or thinking about babies and puppies...and we can't do any of that yet. (For the record--I want to buy a house and maybe get a puppy.)

And he's a bit mad at me because I wasn't "helping" him with tonight's job search stuff...but I thought I was. SOMETIMES MEN NEED TO BE A BIT MORE ARTICULATE ABOUT WHAT THEY WANT!!!! He thought he was telling me how I could help him, yet, he was NOT. And what if he isn't doing the cover letter in the right way?

I think he needs to be more proactive. Just DO IT already. Apply for everything, anything. It's irritating and annoying at times. Financially we are still OK, and maybe he's waiting for a bigger issue to happen...for that to really kick him in the butt? I don't know...

I hate that I need to control everything. It's so annoying. I wish I could be more "live and let live." Maybe someday.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Meeting people and keeping in touch

Hah, two posts in one day from me! Even though I really need to shower and go to the grocery store...

I was reading through Illini_girl's blog just now...and it struck me. She knows a lot of people and keeps in touch with so many! Actually, this struck me before, just never had the gumption to write about it. (or am I just procrastinating instead of getting OFF of the couch!?)

I wonder why it's so easy for some people to keep in touch, but not for others? I always thought I did a good job in the past, or at least it seemed that way. Did I really though? I only talk to 2 people from childhood/HS. When college first started, I thought I did well at keeping in touch, but I guess not. Maybe the other people just got busy? Who knows? I went to Girls State in HS and I met a really cool group there...and we wrote for a bit, but then the letters stopped even though I kept writing. Again, it didn't work.

I think about my college friends--I only had a group of 5 (6 counting me) and two of them have just about fallen off of the face of the earth. I don't get it. I tried and tried, and to me, friendship is a two way street. I'm not really mad at anyone, just disappointed. I mean, when the two moms can keep in touch more than two single ladies...you gotta wonder ;-) Perhaps they've moved on and found "new lives" and I haven't?

I've only made one real grown up friend (meaning: I didn't use school to meet them) and I feel really weird at times, because I don't have a group or even really another couple to invite over to hang out with DH and me.

Work has cliques and perhaps I'm better off staying neutral, especially if I might be promoted to manager or something. But it sucks. The one girl who I was getting tight with--she got fired and now I'm doing her stuff! I have very little social interaction at work. It's a small company, mostly men, and the girls who do work there were all friends with each other in college! WTF?

Most of the time, this stuff doesn't bother me, and I just go about my merry way and do my work and go home...but sometimes it's lonely. Sometimes it'd be nice to have someone to eat lunch with or gossip about the boss with.

There's a part of me that wonders if I've blogged about this before, and if I have, my apologies. Obviously it's still bothering me. :-P

But what is it that some people just want to keep in touch with others? Very interesting question. I better go shower now. lol

Saturday

On my last post here, Illini_girl commented with "yay you're back!" Ooops. Didn't realize I'd been away for so long. Sorry to disappoint my faithful followers.

Work was busy (when is it not) and then I took some time off from work, which was well needed. Only to go back for two crazy days.

Today I slept in a bit, then went to see Grandpa at the "home" and to the gym before coming home. It's almost 4 and it's like, where did the day go? Ehhh. DH is at an all day training class and he'll be home in no time, probably wanting to do SOMETHING, and I just feel like chilling out. There are some things to be done around the house, too.

And tomorrow we have a party at my parents but that's not til the afternoon. Hopefully I can get my butt in gear to get stuff done before then.

I love my time off but it always goes so quickly!

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Gotta do what ya gotta do...

DH had an interview with the state. Didn't go that great. He did fine, just not impressed with the position/location.

I am still stuck here until he gets a job...just have to keep on keepin' on. When he gets something and gets settled, then I can have my turn. (DH actually said something about ME taking a hiatus!) But what should I do? I don't know...I'm feeling stuck again in re: to what should I do with my life?

I just had three days off (plus the weekend)...and it was very hard to come back today.

I guess what I need to do is keep work at work, and find things at home to do that are fun. I actually worked on my needlepoint over the days off and got a lot accomplished. I even bought two new projects for the hell of it!

Part of me wants to go back to school for design/decorating. But can you make money?? LOL I don't think so. Ugh, it's annoying...and I'm just rambling right now.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

email problems

If you've been trying to reach me via my yahoo account, there's some kind of bug that's messing things up. NOT a virus...it's a yahoo glitch. Hopefully I can answer your emails soon!

And guess where things for this blog go to? That account. Lovely!

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

I have some good news that I forgot to share!


I HAVE TOMATOES FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not big ones, not red ones...but tiny-to-small-sized tomatoes. I was excited a few weeks ago to see the buds starting, but when I went out the other day to water them and actually saw GREEN BALLS, it was amazing!

I can't WAIT for them to keep growing and for them to turn red!

(Yes, this means that I'm allowed to keep my plants--they are on the back deck, but they can stay! I have an awesome landlord who went to bat for me with the condo board.)

The image I've used here is NOT from my plants. My growth isn't this big, yet, but it's a good stand-in.

So I'm not the only one...

who wants to work less in-office:

http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2008-06-30-four-day_N.htm